Stupid Stupid Stupid.

I just went from super happy to unbelievably sad in the span of 2.4 seconds.

Look at how unbelievably beautiful and amazing and awesome that looks. It's like my dream right there and I was so close to thinking it would happen...but it won't...cause the only wedding package with the Sleeping Beauty castle available costs between $30,000 and $45,000....that's like a down payment on a frickin' house!

Lame.....so very lame....

Hate you Disney Land.

Hate.

You.

**Edit: After thinking about it I guess it's all good....I don't need something that extravagant anyway.

Sleeping Beauty

So I've decided that my next foray into the crafting world (outside of the usual making clothes and what not) will be with dolls. I need to think of a clever name for them...



I made this one for the boy's sister for Christmas. She's modeled after her cause nothing says you're cool like a doll of yourself! She's part of the local derby league and apparently some of the other girls on there want me to make them custom dollies as well....looks like I'm gonna be making some spare cash here soon.

Go Go Gadget Custom Dollies!

<3

PS: I miss the boy a lot and we live in the same house. Odd.

because today I was bored and last night hormonal

Sometimes I feel a bit selfish because I want to spend so much time with the boy. Really I find it a bit ridiculous...so he must find it ridiculous as well. Which makes me sad...I just want to be able to fall asleep in his arms more than one night a week....more than just saturdays.

I miss him tons.

He wants to make plushies with me...isn't that precious? He really is amazing, even though he doesn't believe me when I tell him (crazy boy). He makes me feel so awesome.

But just remember....

I beat my boyfriend at Guitar Hero.

Resolutions...2 weeks late

actually finish my book


craft more


stop being so selfish


save lots of monies


learn a foriegn language


take more pictures


practice drawing and writing more


actually journal...because this year is going to be amazing.

by the way...this coat is amazing

oh the particulars...

My break from myspace blogs...

I guess it's kind of sad that I don't feel comfortable blogging on myspace anymore. Well, it's not that I don't feel comfortable, it's just that myspace blogs seem so...trivial. Myspace in general is pretty trivial actually. It's quite amazing how many people freak out when they get bumped from someone's top friends list. I'm a little guilty at that one, but it only effects me for about a millisecond and then I come to my senses and move on with my life. I've had people call me about it...

"Dude, I'm not cool enough to be on your top friends list anymore? What's up with that?"

"Dude, you realize you just asked my about myspace lists, right?"

"Well I wanna know!"

"You're clearly a bit of a loser."

"But myspace!"

"Whatev."

Oh and then there's the myspace whores...the ones who post the chain bulletins and naked pictures and pretend to be something they totally aren't. Annoying.

I dyed my hair the other day.

This is the before:

This is the after:

So. I realized on my way home from work that one "relationship" completely screwed up my entire life. I'm pretty sure irreversibly. It was probably the worst idea I ever had. And I sit here and try to find reasons to make that particular time in my life legitimate, reasons that don't happen to involve in me making a huge mistake, and...it doesn't work. It was my fault. Bah.

I hate the desert. It's too hot.